Every day I am grateful to stay healthy because without health I would not be able to do anything.
That's a sword of Damocles over all of us.
How has my emotional migration experience been?
I have emigrated from my country 2 times and I am preparing for this third risk, challenge, challenge again.
Look, emigrating implies an emotional change, a personal breakdown and a new construction.
Many times we get stuck in the nostalgia of what we left in our country, and that nationalism that, in my case and in the case of millions of you, is like the passion for, for example, my favorite football team, the wine of my country of origin, Venezuela, which is latent, affects us emotionally and we do not manage to move forward.
These risks, Mrs. @joanstewart , I have lived them in stages.
First I got frustrated, then I got used to it but always with nostalgia ahead and I fell many times that I had to give back, now after 5 years almost 6, I have 8 months that I started to let go of everything that pulled me back, because the next year I'm going to leave my country, and since then doors began to open for me to do other trades, jobs for which I did not prepare academically.
I believe in God a lot first of all, amazing things started to happen and I'm in a moment that I love my country, but I feel that where I am is the best place where I can be and doing what I like. I have a business for 3 years and I am focused more than ever on that, when I emigrate again because I have been developing it via digital.
Without a doubt ...
It is hard, sad, to leave your mom, sister, family, friends, etc. And you go through an internal mourning, a smile on the outside and a sadness on the inside...
When you are a migrant, you lose everything, no one knows who you are, what you have done, whether you are good, bad or mediocre. You must fight again to achieve what you set out to do and that carries the risk that you will make mistakes, make mistakes.
Emigrating by decision because I have to do it, period, is risky for my emotional health, it is letting go of what you leave behind, without attachments, there is always that tasteless one. I say this from experience.
The most important thing is my values and life itself. When you are visiting your country every year or two, you have to renew your visas and there is always the fear that the rules will change here or there.
My husband and I are grateful for the openness they have given us to work in our new migration, however I still cannot openly practice my profession that would be the most comfortable for me.
Meanwhile, I have studied a lot and helped everyone who allows me to. Thank God, the boys (sons) are all developing their lives without mishaps, also as migrants outside our home, in other countries.
And that's what all Venezuelans have been doing for some years, taking risks, in an emotional ambivalence as a result of migration.
Janitze.
Separator made with [Canva]( https://www.canva.com /) by @janitzearratia
Any images in this post are taken with my iPhone 12, the Infinix pro-note 30 or with the camera eighties Rolleiflex 2.8 f, and edited with [Canva]( https://www.canva.com /)
Translation with |DeepL
