These past few days have been really heavy for me. Ever since the flooding started, we had to evacuate and stay in my in-laws’ house again and again. I didn't bother myself count how many times we needed to stay there. I thought things would get easier once we were all under one roof, but it actually became even more stressful for me as a mother.
My youngest child got a severe cough because of the cold weather. I tried my best to take good care of her. But she needed to see a doctor.
That time trycycle aren't available so we needed to write on boats. The transportation fee went triple but I can't endure to see my daughter suffer like that.
She was a given antibiotics but she still on bed for three days and feeling so weak. She also went thinner and thinner. The worst was my mother-in-law is keeping away fruits from my children. Mae-Mae went to our room and brought apples but it was only for herself. I just said to myself they can offer my daughter even half of it but they didn't. My husband always contribute money for our food. He never fails to that weekly! My sister-in-law is always good to us but I didn't expect will lie to her. Katsuki said; how can her grandma say that to her aunt that she brought us food! But all their food was hidden in their old washing machine. They ate it and never give my kids.
The fruits was given by my friend. My husband has no money to give us because he gave my mother-in-law 4000 pesos. We paid the 2000 pesos that we used for Ria's medicine and the 2000 was for our food. He also gave money to our college student. He also needs money for his six day's work. I was depressed so I told my friend that Ria looked naive looking at her cousin eating fruits and she was never given. So she brought fruits and I was overwhelmed and surprised.
Then my son JJ, who lives with my in-laws, caught the flu too. He started coughing, became weak, and I could see that he wasn’t himself anymore. Even though it was a Sunday, I insisted that we look for a pediatrician to make sure both kids would be checked.
What I didn’t expect was hearing my mother-in-law tell me that my son should stop taking his antibiotics. As a mother, that broke me. I’m the one who carried him, cared for him, and yet I feel like my decisions for my own child don’t matter. My rights were taken away slowly, and it’s painful in a way I can’t fully explain.
Yesterday, JJ’s teacher called me, asking how my son was doing. I didn’t know what to say. She knows our situation, because I was called in the school due to my son's lack of IQ. But today I haven’t seen him at school, and I miss him so much. Every day I worry, thinking of how he is, if he’s okay, if he’s being taken care of the way he should be. @katsuki29 message Mariel and she also don't want to have conversations to it.
Please pray for us. I’m tired, but I’m still holding on. I just want my children safe and healthy.
