All those days for nothing, huh, How could this be?!!!

in Hive Learners7 months ago

It's a cruel world and I think the word "fair" should be removed from the dictionary because sometimes life presents itself and there's nothing fair about it, absolutely nothing!

How could I forget my 5th professional exam?
How could I forget the exam that drain everything from me and yet ended up giving me a feedback that was a blow to me?
It was just unfair!!

Having been hearing about the exam ever since scaling through my 3rd medical professional exam, I started early preparing for the 4th medical professional exam so that I wouldn't struggle when the time comes.
I was busy jumping from one class to another all those days.

Then came the exam, I was prepared enough to pass me or so I thought to the extent that I was helping my friends around me with the little I know.
Guess what?
When the results came out, I had an issue with the papers.
I scrolled the result sheets over and over again to make sure my eyes weren't deceiving me but hell no, they were real.

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The helper failed whereas persons he helped passed... How could life explain that to me?
How could life explain that persons I helped explaining various topics passed and I failed?
How could life explain that persons that meet me with one confusion or another passed and I failed?

It was just unfair!!! And I said to myself, All those days for nothing? All those sufferings for nothing?

Coping With The Pain

We were meant to retake the exams shortly after the results were released in 3months time.I came back to school and met the consultant I was under during my medical postings.
He saw me and asked me, "what are you doing here? Don't tell me you failed?"

On hearing these questions, I was mute and couldn't even utter a word because how else do I explain to him... There's no evidence I said to myself.

He left the patients he was attending to and began to tell me how he failed not just once nor twice but uncountable times and today he's a professor of paediatrics, in his words,
"Medical school is a whole different world but then, when you fail here, don't let it get to you but rather see it as a part of the programme because certainly you won't be able to save all the patients in your days of practice, you will save some and some will die on your watch but the most important thing is that you did your best"

On hearing these words, they boosted me a lot and I always remembered them everytime I felt down.

Moving Past The Pain

The exams soon came and I gave my best again, this time around more fiercely and I passed the exam to the glory of God.

Passing the exam was the only way to move past the pain because there are some injuries that will never heal unless you take out what is causing it.


Most things that happens on earth have no logical explanation to why it must happen and perhaps why it must be you it happens to and the sad thing about them is that they do happen anyway, so, brazen up yourself and pray you have persons to motivate you in these times of sufferings.


Thanks for reading and have a nice day

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I can feel your pain, this happened to me before too, a guy helped me in the exam hall too I passed but the guy failed I was so disturbed because I couldn't wrap my head around it, I understand it too

It's really a depressing thing honestly
You just can't understand how it happened

Such happened to me before in school. Though I didn't fail but the people I helped passed more than me.
Such is life. Doing ones best is the most important.

That's the truth... Just giving your best at all times
It's fine

Yeah

I like the way your professor put it out to you. In reality, he is right, there will be patients you won't be able to save when you start practicing, that doesn't mean you don't know your job, it's just a part of life.

Yep, the analogy was apt and very relatable.. it kept me moving honestly

I am happy for you 🙂

Thanks 😊

Many exams in my life were unfair because they didn't measure my knowledge. some were made for those who can memorize for example, or others were made to make students fail hehe

Indeed, exams aren't the true test of knowledge but that always leaves me with the unanswered question, what then is the true test of knowledge?

The exact same thing happened to me in college. I explained some statistics to my classmates and when they took the exams, they got a better grade than me. I don't know if it was the nerves or that my teacher, who was pregnant at that time, always demanded more from me than the other students, mistreated me in front of my classmates and because of her condition I didn't respond to her. However, at the end of the statistics course I managed to pass the subject, but with a very low grade. Sometimes I think that the teacher's pregnancy had a big influence on that, and she didn't like me.

For me, I think she just didn't like you because other students you were better than that passed also passed through her... It's always demoralising and these teachers should know that.
It's true that the reward of good work should be more work but then it's also with great commission not suffering.

Thanks for engaging

Most things that happens on earth have no logical explanation to why it must happen and perhaps why it must be you it happens to

A very sad reality of life.
I am so glad you survived this trying period of your life.
Happy new month 🥂

Tough days indeed

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