I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙
Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙
This is the thing about being as active and focused as I've been on Hive for so long, some days flow easefully, and with a lot of energy to make what I want happen, while other days, like today, I feel very little inspiration or motivation. I still do what needs to get done, but there is a lot less energy and focus, so things just go more slowly. This lack of inspiration and motivation is definitely present for me here in this off-grid jungle community lately, and it even sometimes makes an appearance for me here on Hive too. Some days I just really feel like doing nothing. That's not so easy, however either here in the jungle, or on Hive, as I have important things to get done every day in both domains.
Some days I just have to push myself to do the various tasks that I need to get done in both contexts, to the best of my ability. Depending and relying on others to do the things that they say they are going to do, and within reasonable time frames, is very much an area of annoyance and frustration to me, which is a big reason that I just do my best to focus as much as I'm able on my own stuff.
Unfortunately, some, or even many, of the various things that I do require other people to do their own things, too, so that I'm able to do mine. Needless to say, I really, really, really don't like having to depend and rely on other people for me to do what I need to do, as I very often end up quite disappointed. This applies to both GaiaYoga and to Hive.
I apologize for my rather pessimistic mood today. I just don't feel actually met, seen, or understood by most of the people that I know, sadly, both in my day-to-day life, as well as here on Hive. There are some people that grok me, but they are quite few and far between, it would seem. It's a very lonely experience.
I do my best not to complain, though, as I know that does nothing good for anyone. I try to stay focused on the few things where I feel like things are going well, where there is progress, growth, and development. That's not always so easy, however, especially in this jungle community, but also to a degree here on a Hive as well. Some things seem to take forever, or even to go backwards. Regardless of my dishearted state, I continue forward, always, adapting, adjusting, improvising, improving, and refining as I go.
Yesterday, I left the Flow House, once I had finished up my Hive tasks, just a little after 2PM, focusing first on some photography for these posts, and for my entry in the Reflection Hunters Contest. When I had that done, I got my machete and collected a wheelbarrow full of assorted foliage for cow-milking food, and then I took a quick shower, before heading to the Landing to make myself some food. I had half of a potato left, so I made myself some French fries. Iolanthe came into the Landing looking for me, as I was finishing up with my fries. I shared them with her, of course, dipping them into my leftover guacamole, which was actually quite a good combo. When we had finished the fries, she wanted me to go down to Tutu's with her to make more food. When we got there, her mother, Melekai, reminded her that she needed to help put some washed clothes up on the line to dry. I ended up helping with that too, and then heading back down to Tutu's to make her some more food. I stayed there talking with both Melekai and Io until after dark, and then I finally walked Io to Braja's place (Braja is still in the hospital), so that she could use the wifi. Upon leaving her there, I stopped off at the Landing to collect my jar of leftover superfood fire coffee, and my jar of kefir, and then I made my way back to the Flow House to get into my evening round of Hive tasks, and to catch up on my notifications, a little later than usual. I got everything on Hive done by about 9:30PM, and after writing and publishing My Entry for Reflection Hunters Contest: Round 194 - Katuk Fruit Reflections post, some token management, and a scan of my X feed, I went to bed just a little after 12AM. Very thankfully I did sleep well, waking up first at 7AM, going back to bed for a bit more, waking up again just before 7:45AM, doing another round of token management, starting on this post, and then getting out of bed just before 9AM to go make my superfood fire coffee, and to milk the cow with Jo(hana). Once I was done with the cow, I returned to the Flow House to write this post. It's now just before 1:30PM, so a very good time to end this post, so that I may get to my few other important Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House a little later in the afternoon, to first take more photos for these posts, strain and blend kefir (kefir-honey-cinnamon-cacao), and then community/land work. I deeply appreciate y'all so very much! Until the next iteration of this post tomorrow! Always forward, onward, upward, and whaleward, ho, together we go! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙
2024 Life Goals
1.) Heal my broken heart, reignite my heart sun, and embody a solid, healthy masculine, allowing my electric fire to shine bright, no matter what others, especially women, say or do.
2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness.
3.) Do regular (naked) integral practices again, alone or with others.
4.) Dance regularly again.
5.) Work with natural entheogens (mushrooms, ganja, ayahuasca), with punctuated regularity, as a part of my healing process again.
6.) Get, and keep, regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions for women flowing again.
7.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again.
8.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again.
9.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth, care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, enjoyment, playfulness, work, fun, laughter, attraction, and all-level connections and relationships.
10.) Make love with the woman, or the women, that I love, every day, as a sacred devotional practice.
11.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon.
All photos were taken with my Motorola G Play 2024 Android Phone.
Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙
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