I remember one time I looked at myself and I was wondering what was holding me back from going a step forward. I thought long and hard because I was tired of being in one position, I just wanted to do better and to do that I needed to let go some things once and for-all. So what were the things that were holding me back?
In the course of my thought, I realized that one of the reasons I had not moved forward was the fear of being Embarrassed. I hated being laughed at but then I realized that my fear of being embarrassed was holding me back from becoming what I wanted to be. So what they laugh at me, they are not going to be laughing all day moreover they all have their problems to handle and mine is just a cheese on the icing cake because they have a lot to deal with than my flaws. I was always scared of going out there to make myself look stupid but then I realized that if I didn't start, I would continue to look very stupid than i think. If I failed the first time and I am laughed at or I feel embarrassed, it is my job to work on what embarrassed me so I can be better at doing the right thing.
Just the same way I saw not trying as a bad idea because I would rather try than fail as a result of not trying, I also decided to get embarrassed because if I didn't I wouldn't learn and go far. I decided that I was going to do it even if it meant making a fool of myself in the presence of people. At least I would know that I tried because if I didn't try then I failed. The funny thing is people who I think worry about me do not even worry about me as I thought because they have their own worries. Worrying about what will happen doesn't take away the troubles of today or tomorrow, it only takes away the peace of the day.
The first time I faced a team of interviewers, I was so scared that my heart almost jumped out of my chest but I realized that as we started the conversation, it went smoother than I thought it would. They weren't going to lash out at me before I said anything and if they did, all I had to do was to remain calm until I worked out of the room. I went in and did all I could and the reception I got was breath taking compared to what I was worrying about. I then decided that I was going to meet with people continuously until I was able to get the confidence to face people and not be worried about embarrassing myself.
Have you ever been scared of not embarrassing yourself? If you are then keep calm, remember that you are not in the boat alone but you always have to look at the big picture instead of staying with the small canvas that can be repainted to get to the big picture. Always be willing to get embarrassed, start talking to people and do not worrying about making mistakes because you will get better as time goes on.
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