This is my post for #memoir Monday prompt what do you worry about? hosted by @ericvancewalton
I have a son and three grandchildren who are missing from this photo. These are the people who I worry about. My parents are both gone, I have lost all of my brothers and I have one sister who shows me she cares for me, I do love the other one, just because I feel I have to, but I do not worry about her.
My children are all adults now but there are1. only two that I never worry about how they are doing. The other three there is not a day goes by that I don't worry about them, but I try to put them in God's hands and Pray they will be alright, I try to tell myself that they are adults and are living the life they want to live but still I worry. One is not on drugs, he is having a hard time with having to move, but the other two are on drugs and there is nothing I can do to help them unless they want help.
Other than these people I do not worry about much else, there is no room in my head for other worries. I used to worry about how I was going to pay the bills but somehow they always got paid. I used to worry about if we would have enough food to feed 5 kids but they never went hungry.
I have found that worrying, causes me to have a lot of sleepless nights for nothing, in the end, everything will work out, all you need to do is have Faith that it will work out.
This is something I wish I could teach my husband, there is not a day that goes by that he is not worrying. He thinks he needs to live in a world where everything goes to his plan and if something does not, he acts like it is the end of the world.
Case in point. We grow areca palms to sell and every spring I put them up for sale, the first week we sold several, then the next week we had several people say they were coming but did not show, that was it, he said we will not grow anymore, we can not make it by selling them, people are buying another type of plant for hedges, they do not want arecas anymore, blah blah blah. This week we have sold almost all that are ready to sell. He never has Faith that things will work.
Thinking about it, I worry about how my grandchildren will make it in this ever growing and expensive world but then, I remember hearing my Dad talk with his friends and saying how his children will make it in this world and here I am making it.
