Thank you sooo much dearest @emma-h for this gorgeous response - it is truly the best to be connected with like-spirited folks like yourself, and to be able to delve into these deep levels of feeling and knowing - and healing. My most effortless healing moments have always come from hearing others' experiences, like you share above here... it is beautiful to step out of the pretention that we are all 'fine' and smiling on social media - when life is incredible hard for most of us at least some of the time - at least until we recognise what is conspiring against us, and step up into our vitality and power! Many blessings and huge gratitude for your witness. I so appreciate your positive comment on my young self too: it is indeed a beautiful moment captured by the photographer - before digital snaps!